When I get a haircut, I usually feel bad about how I look for at least a week. It’s a thing. Even though I often end up being really happy about my hair after that week, I still need that first week of emotional torture.
I don’t know why, but it seems to be the same thing with paintings. Right after a painting is done, I usually feel like I’ve failed badly. Then after a while I can become surprisingly pleased with my result. In fact some of the paintings I feel the worst about right after finishing, are the ones I end up being the most happy with.
I hope this makes sense to more people than just me.
In fact, if I’m really pleased with a piece right after it’s done, I usually end up finding it boring and after a while I forget about it or hide it away. Sometimes other people like it right from the start. But I have to hate it a little bit at first.
I’m 42 years old now, and I’ve had so many hair cuts in my life, that I don’t really get into the whole emotional swing anymore. I just know, I have to feel ugly for a week after going to the hairdresser. I’m so used to it, and I don’t blame the poor hairdressers anymore. Although I still put off getting a haircut, when I need it. I procrastinate to avoid feeling ugly ;-) But I’m okay with it.
I wonder if I’ll ever get as used the painful feeling of finishing a painting, as I am to the hairdresser. The only person to blame is me. I can’t blame the poor quality of the paint anymore. Cause I’ve started buying quality paints.
This one is finished, but I’m only showing you the photo of the proces. I still don’t like the finished piece enough to show it. And it’s been a few weeks now. I wonder if I’ll end up liking this painting very much?
If I do, I'll be sure to post a picture of it in here :-)